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Hi my name is Matthew Joseph Clark II i go by Joey and I am 19 years old. I went to nascar tech in mooresville, NC but I got kicked out so I moved back home to benton, MO. Everything was going great out there i made good grade and I wasn't getting into any trouble. I soon realized that i need a jo so i could pay rent and buy food to live off of. I went all through NC to find a job but the only job that would take me was teasers a gent. club in statesville DJing. I was glad to finally get a job but i couldn't work and go to school at the same time. I had to be at work at 6 and school started at 1:45 and ended at 8 and i'm only allowed to miss 8 hours or i flunt the class but i thought having a place to live and food in side me was a little more important.  i got kicked out and stayed at teasers a few more months but still wasn't making alot my bank account got into the neg. and the school is charging me the time i was there. Its hard to find a job now here in missouri and I need to pay my bills before they get any higher. I have a son to help take care of and some job won't hire me bc of my credit so i hear so i need help getting my two bills payed so i can start my life over and help out with my son and help me with my life.

Thank you,

Joey

on this saturday (october 22) it will mark the three years since my dad has died.

he died due to complications with surgery that he had done to make his care easier (he had muscular dystrufy)

i am finding it very hard to cope with this year. and i do not know who to go to or how to go to them. i just feel very lost and very alone, even though i have great friends who have dealt with loss. it still feels like no one really wants to listen, as i tend to ramble on sometimes when i talk about my dad.

a friend -who recently lost his twin sister- told me i really should go to counseling -since he is and i guess it helps.
the problem is that i cant afford counseling, since my dad died my mom and i are having great financial difficulties -to the point that we are having problems paying our bills this month. and my town is small so there arent any local support groups or anything.

i am extremely stressed out because i do not do well in school at this time of year. i have no motivation around the time of my dad's death. but i am taking a class this semester due to the fact that my mother wishes me to. i recently quit my second job due to the fact that it was cutting into my class time. so now i feel horrible because i cant help my mom with any of our bills.

i am so stressed out!!! i am way behind in my classes and starting to feel like a complete failure.. i really need something that will help me take hold of my situation before my life falls apart!